No Clowns Allowed

No clowns allowed, though there were banners, confetti, 
streamers, candles, animals balloons, large helium tanks 
sitting in the right-hand corner, magicians showing 
clichéd tricks with their overwhelmingly long fingers.
Thousands of red ocean balls, the exact size of a nose,
poured in where children played, the pit, where every 
single one of them was intertwined with plastic, their innocent 
faces twisted into smiles no better than frowns. Clowns, 
with red noses and red lips, blended into the buttercream 
because no one can tell the difference between 
animal fat and cake. They kissed us children, painted 
our faces until paint tore down our skin, until ash 
burst from deflated balloons. There are no longer parties, no.
No celebration was needed for another birthday. 
A sketch of a creepy clown balloon.

Poet: Qiying Feng

Artist: Qiying Feng

Editors: Nicole Kuchta, Zoha Khan

Qiying Feng

Qiying Feng (she/her) is a self-described illiterate college student. She can be reached at fqiying@umich.edu.

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